What we do for Love -

     This is Wolfie our wonderful dog and my false sense of security against a bad world.   We've had Wolfie for a long time and He's old now, well fed and tired.   We figure the old boy had a stroke a couple days ago and now he doesn't seem to be able to move the back end of his body and not much of the front legs either.  As you can see He is a big ole dog.  Shepherd/great dane mix,  he's about 100 lbs.  We had made him a comfortable spot in the barn to recuperate.  His food and water was close by, we left a light on for him and even hung a heater to help keep him warm.
     Tuesday night he made his way outside into his pen area but he must have had another stroke and his wobbly legs wouldn't hold him up any longer so he laid down or fell to the ground.  That's where Cecil found him Wednesday morning when he went to check on him.  Wolfie laying on the cold snowy ground waiting for us.  We couldn't get him back in the barn at the time so we covered him with his favorite blanket and brought out his water, which he drank some of right away .... you see Wolfie is still alive.
     Later that morning I put 2 old blankets in the dryer to warm them then took them out to Wolfie and covered him ... He seemed grateful and gave me a great sigh with a shiver.   I cried ... again.
     When Cecil came home we got right to work in the barn to make.  It needed some cleaning from where Wolfie was comfy before because He doesn't have much control of his bodily functions and He wasn't holding down his food either.   So we threw everything out, swept high and low, shoveled up the whole mess to be pitched or burned then I went back into the house for more bedding for our Wolfie.  I came out with a king size comforter and 2 smaller blankets for cushioning under the comforter and made him a bed. 
     Now Wolfie waited for us outside on the ground patiently, not a whimper, not a whine.  He knew we were working for his comfort.   I talked to him and let him know what we were doing and told him to hold on we were almost finished.  Every time I said his name I cried ... alittle more.    Cecil talked to Wolfie also.
     I was worried about moving Wolfie because he has arthritis and I didn't want to be the cause of more hurt to him and I didn't want him to bite me because I was hurting him ... oh I was worried.   Big dog ... big teeth.

     His room was ready, his bed was made with clean blankets.  Moving Wolfie was going to take both of us,  Cecil took the front and I was to pick up the back end.
     When I saw Cecil standing over Wolfie picking up the front of him and walking I looked at the back legs drawn close to Wolfie's body but dragging ... I couldn't understand what I was seeing, it wasn't registering but when Cecil kept walking and still Wolfie's back legs ...  I just reached for him.  I wrapped my arms around Wolfie's hips and cupped my hands together under him and picked up.   His arthritis wasn't bothering him anymore.
     The doorway into his room from the outside is large doggy door.  Ok it's a little bigger than a doggy door - not by much.  We get Wolfie to that point but we can not just walk Him in so Cecil lays him over the cement  hump, climbs over Wolfie and in through the 2 foot high door then picks Wolfie's front up again and moves him in more.  I'm thinking, I have to do the same thing.  Oh my ... I'm not that flexible how am I going to do what he just did.  When it was time for Wolfie's back end to go through that little door Cecil said He could get him from here.  Wolfie tried to help but all I heard was his paw nails scraping across the cement floor of his room.
     I hurried around into the front side of the barn and went through the regular size door to help get Wolfie settled in.  We covered him with his favorite blue blanket (not clean but it's his favorite) gave him fresh water and some food, He hasn't eaten in 2 days but he is drinking water.

     At least now he isn't laying outside on the ground anymore. The stroke didn't kill him but not eating will, I hope he eats soon.

     It's Thursday morning March 27th, 2014 and I decided to blog about our experience with Wolfie's stroke from when he managed to get out of the barn to us getting him back into the barn.

     Cecil just checked on Wolfie and now I must tell you ... all things pertaining to Wolfie must be changed to past tense.   Wolfie was warm and loved.  He spent his last night NOT on the cold snowy ground covered with his favorite blanket but his last night was in a dry room with a cement floor, on a large pile of clean dry blankets, water and food was available and within reach for him.  He was covered with His favorite blue blanket.

Wolfie was my false sense of security in a bad world.  He was wonderful.  I stayed up all night with him when he hurt himself right after we got him from the animal shelter.  He checked on us HOURLY when he stayed in the house at night when it was to cold outside for an old dog (even though he would be in the barn).  Wolfie was such a great guard dog, no man or woman dared approach our house on his watch.  You would have thought He was going to lunge over the fence and get you.  He didn't jump ... he  lunged!  A child could visit anytime.  Walking right past the "BEWARE OF DOG" sign.

Whomever gave up "Frankie" (my Wolfie) to Paws of Urbana, Ohio around 2004,  thank you.  I found him and finding him was better than getting a new purse to me.  A big dog!  I love a big dog and HE was going to be a big dog.      

Wolfie!! when we first got him

He was so skinny when he was young

Wolfie is making himself at home

We got Wolfie a friend to play with ... Joey is the little white dog

this was just a month ago ... DO YOU SEE HIS FAVORITE BLUE BLANKET?

Thank you letting me share
Oh how do I replace my Wolfie - I need a false sense of security between me the world.  I know the real security comes from our Creator but in this time of hate and lawlessness I need a guard to walk the fence to give me that temporary and false sense of security until the ever lasting security IS a reality.


 - Marcene ♥

Today is day 204 of the year 2013

Day 204 of 2013 ... July 23rd ...Tuesday

How did we get this far into 2013 already?  Wow!  It seems like winter will never end and BAMMMM ... spring has sprung and we are half way through summer. 
I haven't posted my blog in months and I must tell you,  I have missed it,  I have thought about you often and a time or two I allowed my cursor to pause over the "Marcenz Blog" bookmark ... but then went on with what I was doing.
Some changes have taken place in our household.  I have blogged about our middle daughter Sara and Her Family wanting to move in and take care of us so we were going to add on a Mother - In - Law Suite for us and give them the house ... remember that?  Well that has at least been put on hold because in May, after school was out ... almost, our youngest, Beth, and Her 3 children moved in.  They are staying so all the changes that were on the table for a family of 4 (Sara, Patrick, Molly and Miles) will now be for Bethy, Lilly, Ireland and Jaxon.   Same number of people.
 Also about Bethy, she had a check up to check on the cancer procedure she had undergone in January of this year.  After that procedure she was told all went well and they got it all and she was cancer free.  Early in July she went for her check up and then got THE PHONE CALL.  She has to wait until August 1 for the full consult but she was told the cancer is back.   We can fight this if she is willing to admit she has cancer but she doesn't want to talk about it ... with me.    You can not deny what may change your life and the life of your family.  Sure you can say ... NO, NO, THIS IS NOT HAPPENING TO ME ... but be prepared to go through what needs done.  If that means a second opinion then put on those big girl panties or take off those big girl panties and get that second opinion. 
OK now that I got that out of my system... 
What else is new or different around here.  We are almost ready to move me into the barn.  LOL  that wasn't quite right.  We are moving my den/craft room into the top of the barn so Bethy can have a room of Her own and she can sleep in a bed and get off the couch.  She deserves a bed.  Our funds have seen better days but we are getting things done.  Cecil still needs to rebuild a door and paint.  Then we should be able to start putting in the boards that will be my tables.  I'm just not sure about taking my computer up there.  Will I be able to use my WIFI in the house if the modem is up in the barn?  We watch Netflix on the TV using AppleTV which using WIFI from my computer modem or my IPad which uses WIFI from my computer modem.  We will work it out, I'm not sure how yet.
I'm going to be 53 this year.  This month ...actually this week.  I wouldn't mind aging if I was not so out of shape and by that I mean ROUND.
I can't stand or walk for any length of time so exercise is difficult.  Since exercise is difficult when I exert myself I get out of breath quickly.   Routine chores become major when they take more than 10 minutes at a time or involve a lot of bending (dishwasher).  It gets done but sometimes it takes more than a day depending on the amount needing done.
Cecil will be seeing a surgeon for His knee and His shoulder.  He wants to retire,  he talks about it all the time.  Counting down the days.   I will be 53 so He will be 64 by the end of the summer.

Remember I have 2 shops on etsy
Marcenebt99    (Hand Crafted Jewelry)
MarcenzJewelSupplies   (Jewelry and Craft Supplies)

Have a good week
 - Marcene

Hello all, it's Beth again. The procedure went good. It was a little more painful then they told me it would be but I am feeling better right now. They got all the cancer off the cervix and they don't feel like the syste on my overies will be cancerous. I thought the untersound would be today but it turns out it was just a phyical check today. They do still have to look into it, but they seem very sertain that it is not cancerous. So i am feeling better about that. The servical scarp went as well as it could go.  She said she had to go a little deeper and cut into a few places but for the most part it was all on the serface. I am in a little bit of pain, and i'm not sure what tomarrow will feel like, but knowing that the cancer is out of my body feels wonderful. I am very tired so i won't be blogging alot tonight but i just had to tell everyone that i am doing good. I wanted to thank everyone for there sweet wished and wonderful prayers to help me and my family tho this. My heart go out to families that don't have it as easy as we did. Cancer is a horriable thing that doesn't care about who you are, or what your plans on for the next couple years. We can't control it sometimes and sometimes even with the best efforts we don't win the fight. My family and I were very blessed and fortionate to have a possitave outcome but i ask that you please keep staying involved in a fight for the cure and continue to pray for famils and loved ones that are still fighting the fight.
  Thank you to everyone for helping me through this. I don't know what i would have done without my family and my friends, and there family and friends, and even there family and friends. LoL it's amazing how such a horriable thing can bring so much love or unity. Just because the cancer in gone from me, don't let that love and support and unity go away. Please, keep wearing the ribbins, wearing the shirts, and supporting all our amazing fighters out there.